Survival 101
28 Feb 2011 Leave a Comment
in Personal Tags: enthusiastic rambling, optimism, ponderings, study
Hey guys, guys, I just survived my first day of university!
… Yeah, I know the title of this post isn’t necessarily the most clever one I’ve ever come up with, but who asked for your opinion anyway?
*cough* Moving on: my survival. Granted, it wasn’t much of a survival, because I only had three lectures and no labs/tutorials/pracs whatsoever. But! Still! Though this is kind of looking to be a sort of “dear diary” entry that I usually loath to publish, I think I’m going to have to share this experience with you. So bear with me while I share my thoughts related to studying and my plans in life.
Before I start delving in detail into how I feel about everything and what I’ve liked so far and what not, I suppose I should provide you with some detail about what I actually study and where. I may have mentioned this before, in passing, but I think a re-iteration should take place, to put all the information in one place. I study at Monash University, Clayton campus, in Melbourne. From what I can gather, this is one of the (if not the) best universities in Australia to study science at. This comes from the testimonies of a couple of acquaintances, recent monetary grants from the government to the university and the claims of the faculty representatives themselves — and from the feeling I get when I listen to any science orientation lecture. And yeah, as you can gather, I study science — but also biomedical sciences, because at the last minute to change applications, I foolishly added a double degree as my first preference, instead of just running with my original plans, which was just to do a single bachelor of science, instead of this double degree that I’m enrolled to at the moment.
Look, I know I’m being judgmental, since I’ve not even fully begun studying, but there’s so much to the whole degree than just the subjects matters of the units I’m enrolled in. There’s the feeling I get when I’m around people doing biomed, and in any contact with the organisational body of my degree, the lecturers of the biomed units… I just don’t feel like I belong there at all. However, I don’t think that the subject matter itself is going to be a problem for me to study — the two biomed units that I’m doing this semester are a biology equivalent (which scares the hell out of me, since I haven’t done any biology since year 9, and I already feel like I’m light-years behind; the fact that my first lab/prac/tute is a lab for this unit really, really, really doesn’t help — I’ll come back to this a bit later) and biochemistry, for which I haven’t even had my introductory lecture yet. They’re a bit out of my depth, true, but that’s exactly the thing I had in mind when I enrolled into a double degree — to expand my horizons and try out as many things as I could. Maybe I’m not as excited about studying these two subjects as I could be, but hey, at least I’m not overly apprehensive — except maybe against my fellow students.
What I am excited about, though, are my two science units: geosciences, and chemistry. Chemistry, as some of you may know/have gathered, is pretty much my thing — the thing I rave about and love and am good at. My lecturer for this unit is great, too, very inspiring and an energetic fellow. He moves pretty fast, though, or at least he did today — I’ll have to work through the same things a bit slower when I’m alone, just to get a good hang of them. Geosciences excites me as well, though I’ve never really done anything of the kind: you can see from the enrollment of about 400 people that it’s one of the popular & exciting units, where we study things like dinosaurs and plate tectonics and volcanos. The lecturer for this unit is pretty damn cool as well — just as excitable as my chemistry lecturer, and very attuned with the present time. She also seems to have a sort of geeky mindset that really, really appeals to me — and as she said earlier today, she believes in teaching in pretty pictures.

Like this.
Hell yeah.
Anyway. Universally, I’m already relatively in love with the whole study system of university. Admittedly, it kind of feels like they’re expecting us to get into the whole system as fast as possible (though they ARE providing us with the appropriate resources & help classes and everything), but I venture forth with an intelligent guess that they won’t really be as hard on us as I’m fearing. So, the good side of having to figure things out is the freedom that I now have. I already adore lectures. I was never worried that I wouldn’t be able to learn in that method — a few of my teachers, in fact, those that I liked the best already used this format in high school. And even better than that, in high school the teachers expected a little proactivity of their students, instead of just sitting & listening & taking notes and learning — and now I’m free to be in my small, private learning bubble as much as I want. Ah! The only problem I MAY come to have with this is how to organise my notes — but as of now, I’m formulating some sort of system where I just jot everything down that I may need, and then later compile them into an electronic form in the manner of revision. A similar method worked out relatively well for me last year in chemistry, so.
The only thing I’m genuinely worried about at this point in time is labs/pracs/tutes, mostly, though, because I’m unfamiliar with the concept of learning through doing. Forever when doing science, I remember I hated pracs, mostly because we were always given the answers as to what the things we were experimenting upon were supposed to do, instead of learning through hands-on activity. It is possible that that will change, so that excites me a little bit… But I’m still a more book-based learner than anything else. Coming out of my study bubble isn’t fun for me. But! Should be brave and venture forth and that sort of thing; wouldn’t be much of a scientist in the future if I didn’t, right? Though, like I mentioned before, it really doesn’t help my fears that upon receiving our unit guide for my biology class, my first lab (which takes place on wednesday, so I only have tomorrow to prepare) was outlined and there was really not much that I understood in this outline. Gotta stay positive and think that it’s the first one, we’ll be fine… Right? *chews on nails*
Ok, I think that’s basically all I came to say. In lots of words. However, feel reassured, because I’ve challenged myself to, from now on, include at least one illustrative picture (that I will very often shamelessly steal off the internets)

Like this one. Here, have a completely pointless diagram. For illustrative purposes, see?
in each of my posts for those of you with short attention spans when it comes to my long (though hopefully vaguely exciting/interesting) drawls about… stuff. Generally.
Soooo, that’s it for me, folks! I’ll go arrange my diary (that’s something that happens a lot) and go read LOTR (almost finished Fellowship!) and play Phoenix Wright (if you don’t know that which I speak of, I both shun you and encourage you to find out right now — they’re possibly the most awesome games made for the ds, and I’m a fan of pokemon) or other videogames. So many videogames, so little time!
Peace and love and awesome videyagames, everyone.
Check it out, I can talk about twenty things at the same time!
05 Oct 2010 2 Comments
in Personal Tags: enthusiastic rambling, flow of consciousness, holidays, more awesome than you can handle, optimism, seasons, study
Erm. I don’t know if I widely advertised the fact that I just had a two-week break from school, but if I did and if I boasted something about the fact that I would have had a lot of time to, you know, update my blog and do fun stuff and the such, I obviously meant social stuff that has nothing to do with the internet and me prattling on to a very limited readership (not that I mind my limited readership, mind you, it’s not like I have time to pimp my blog anywhere anyway). Why couldn’t you figure that out by the time I said it, eh, eh? A girl (or, you know, any human being) needs her time off, duh!
If I never did, then hi, I think I’m at least a little back again. I know that the previous sentence made next to no grammatical sense, but that’s ok, because my mind is full of math at the moment, anyway. Honestly speaking, I’m not really in the mood to blog now, either, like I really haven’t been in the past two weeks or so. It’s funny that at the very moment stuff starts actually happening in my life, I fly out of the internet and don’t even miss it, until I’m bored again. Take that, teenaged me — real life wins, after all!
Ok, I’m rambling, I know, and I’m sorry. I’ve just had so much fun and so little blogging in these two weeks that I don’t even know where to start. I could always start talking about my financial state and how having lots of free time makes me want to do things and, of course, want things to do (ha, c wat I did thar) — which oftentimes means “no moar money for you, missy.” I need my job back! I can’t afford seeing three movies in two weeks — not with my addiction to popcorn and the overpriceyness of foodstuffs in cinemas. And, you know, tickets. But the movies were SOO GOOD. And then there was that dvd that I absolutely needed — no, wait, a set of dvds and then a blu-ray disk and lots of clothes, because the weather has become nicer (YES YES YES SUMMER IS COMING I CAN SMELL IT IT’S GREAT until my nose starts running because hay fever) and my wardrobe has become empty at some point in time I wasn’t paying much attention to–
and I have become SO addicted to Avatar: the Last Airbender that it’s not even funny, and then I just finished watching the last episode last night and was heartbroken so now I’m watching it again, because I’m a masochist like that (hey, little kiddies who don’t know what a masochist is — don’t google it — I SAID DON’T). And then, of course, there’s the exams that are coming at me like a freight train (this is a funny reference to a text we’re studying for English, which is one of the first exams, because alongside with being a masochist, I’m also a huge nerd), and I’m simultaneously exhilarated and terrified and stressed and all those other wonderful feelings that come with something that will determine if or not you get into where you want to study next year — ooooh, and then I’m really excited about the place I want to study at next year, because I was reading up on it and it’s absolutely AMAZING and I can’t wait
and I kinda need a hobby… And I wanna start writing again. That’s probably the most annoying thing about having had a very short holiday just now, a majority of which you had to sacrifice for thinking about or actually doing study for the sake of exams. It was kinda like they dangled a treat above our noses and let us lick at it — the treat here being the SWEET, SWEET FREEDOM that will come after exams — and then cruelly snatched it away, saying “you’ll get the rest of it in a month and a bit!” A month and twelve days from today, to be precise — that’s the day of my last exam.
I should probably stop rambling enthusiastically right now, and go back to that cursed math. And then French, I suppose, since I’ve been avoiding it for the past two weeks or so. Sigh!
Here, have pictures of how I motivate myself to study:
That’s right, I totally employ the power of ORANGE CANDY. <3 If anyone ever loves me so much that they will go through lots of places and buy me this sack full of orange lollipops (such as in the illustration on the left), I will totally… love them forever. That sounds kind of like a lame promise in exchange for candy, doesn’t it? Then again, it also implies that my love can be bought with orange candy — which it totally can, so I’m fine with that. ;3
Regardless, I’ll stop babbling right now and go ahead and continue studying math. I might be back later with something more coherent to say, but don’t count on it until after exams! And even then, I might be too awestruck by my freedom or, alternatively, too free to actually write anything here. But I promise, eventually I’ll settle back into blogging a lot more often — I love writing and talking to random people on the internet WAY too much to stop.
Peace and rambly thought-processes to everyone!
Mathematical problems
19 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
in Personal Tags: angst, future, ponderings, study
Iiii should be doing math right now, but it’s frustrating enough to understand it and still not be able to do well on a test/School Assessed Coursework thing we had, so I’m just ignoring it. Which, of course, is a vicious cycle, because the thing I should be doing now is not a lot of study of theory, like I do in chemistry, but to do a lot of practical application, but I don’t feel like it, because I don’t like a subject I’m not good at.
Oh the throes of having to study math in order to be able to do chemistry later, once November has passed and I am a free woman of obligations of stupid forever! … Well, not exactly, but it doesn’t get much more annoying than high school I hope. It’s so ironic, too, being able to do chemistry almost effortlessly and having to put so much effort into math. Then again, it might just be how we’re taught — I can do math questions as long as I’ve seen them at least once before, but I become completely immobilised if there’s something I’ve never seen before on that paper in front of me, in which case I am, nicely put, rather screwed.
So sad to be so rapt in schoolwork that I can’t even think of anything else, but what can I do, that’s my work and my life and I don’t have much else to — don’t look at me like that, of course I have other stuff to talk about, but this is what bothers me most of the time, so I also spend most of my free time complaining about it and trying to get rid of the whole burden of study. And I happen to genuinely like studying, thank you very muchly, and it’s most likely/hopefully something I’ll be doing the rest of my life. Facts, facts, facts, give me more of them.
Oh, boy, I love chemistry like I love cake. That is, hypothetically.
And again, this brings me back to math and my problem with applications of theorems and everything, because I can be given really difficult chemistry questions for homework (something that my teacher usually doesn’t even mean to be that difficult and only gives it for us to solve as food for thought, or at least in that spirit-ish) and I can work them out: not without effort, but the point is that I can. I have this some sort of weird mind-block in math that prohibits me any individual thinking, or something!
Maybe it’s just something that seeing a string of unexplained numbers invokes in my brain…
Anyway! Life! I will go along with getting one at — some point. Then again, this is me conforming and being afraid of not having anything interesting to say and having a one-track mind and not doing the things “normal” people do and that they call this phenomenon, life. I’m being defensive because I don’t believe there might be people out there who might like/have an obsession with their education in the same way I do — or allow it to define their reality in the way mine does to… well, mine. I know there is/are, but I also know I’m not particularly interesting at this point, but who cares!
It feels kind of lonely in here, speaking to myself and all…

